Sometimes I catch myself getting upset and being annoyed about the fact that I’m upset. While growing into a higher consciousness and awakening to the fact that I am in control of my outer circumstances, I feel even less powerful when I fail to enjoy every single moment in the love of Existence.
The idea that I have to be happy all the time, even though it’s not even true, haunt me way too often and comes to grab me on the most unexpected moments. I find myself worrying about the most useless things and getting angry because I want to be able to control my emotions, but I often forget a very important thing.
I forget everytime, that it is the pain, the sadness and grief that will help me grow. It’s exactly the place that I’m trying to escape, that is supporting me maybe even more than the moments of happiness. Because inspiration can come from a place of sadness as well. The experience of what I don’t like or am hurt by, will only push me closer towards the things I do want instead.
So the pain needs to get in, right exactly in this experience. Because maybe it doesn’t even exist in other dimensions, as it does in this one. That could be a very good reason to go through it as courageously as we can, because it is to be experienced for a reason. A greater reason. As much as moments of joy make you dance, there lies also a different, deep kind of beauty in moments where things seem to fall apart.
Because they only seem to fall apart, but in fact they fall beautifully in place. We just don’t know it yet. Would you ever stop escaping negative emotions, if you understood that they are your key for your own growth, the reason why you even popped up in this dimension?
The “good” and the “bad”, the happy and the sad, they are all a part of our experience for the greatest reasons. Embrace your emotions to learn and understand the power of your human experience.